'Biggest Loser' winner Ali Vincent opens up on gaining weight after the show

THE BIGGEST LOSER -- Season 5 -- Pictured: Ali Vincent -- Photo by: Trae Patton/NBCU Photo Bank (NBC/Getty)

It's been eight years since Ali Vincent was crowned the first female winner of NBC's "The Biggest Loser" in 2008. Nearly one decade later Vincent is opening up about regaining almost all of the 112 pounds she lost.

"'The Biggest Loser' gave me the opportunity to believe in myself and I don’t know that I ever really did," Vincent said on "T.D. Jakes" Monday. "Everybody wanted me to and I wanted to for them, and I had results to prove it. But do I really deserve to have everything that I dream of? Do I deserve to have this happiness?"

She admitted that her personal struggles are holding her back.

"I know that there's stuff that I have to deal with, and I know that it goes back way far, but then I also know that I’m 41 years old — when am I going to own my own stuff?” she said. "When can I just let go?"

Vincent revealed earlier this year that she was the victim of sexual assault while getting a massage.

"I've realized, over the last year, as I’ve gained this weight, it was so much of my life slowed down, that a lot of stuff came up that I just hadn’t dealt with," she said.