Jenny McCarthy: Past relationship 'could have easily killed me'

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Jenny McCarthy opened up for the first time about a verbally abusive relationship in her past that lasted four years.

“What I thought was gonna be a typical relationship turned into a relationship that you would never think you would get yourself into. Especially me,” McCarthy, 44, said at a hair product launch Tuesday (via E! News). “I mean, I really consider myself to be pretty strong-willed and confident, even back then. But I did find myself being slowly manipulated into a very, very dark, abusive — verbally abusive — relationship that could have easily killed me.”

“I no longer had my own thoughts,” she said. “They were replaced with his thoughts about me. That I was worthless, disgusting, talentless, ugly, fat, smelled so badly. I was no longer worthy of being kissed.”

The SiriusXM host admitted that it took “four years of excruciating, verbal abuse” to finally gain the confidence she needed to get out of the relationship.

“I found my accountability in the hell I was living in. The path to loving yourself requires you to stop putting the blame on others and observe the choices you make that got you there,” she said. “It wasn’t his job to love me. It was mine. So I chose to finally get the hell out of that relationship. I chose to be powerful, not powerless.”

McCarthy did not reveal the identity of her allegedly abusive partner, nor when the relationship occurred. She married husband Donnie Wahlberg in August 2014.

This article originally appeared in the New York Post's Page Six.